GooDByE

I was hoping that I could pretend
Trust the moment would live in bliss
Always assured that we could start a new
And still be friends forever

Then when you bored to stand by me
What should I abide beside you?
Last thing I eager you to know
Abstain from you is a expeditious

I don’t know how to say goodbye
Are we just staring each other and gone
As my heart and soul begging me
Never wanted for goodbye

@ RWO - Mahakam Delta 29 Nov 2004
Based on Song of Debbie Gibson – Goodbye...
I never wanted for goodbye actually.

No LoNGeR MinE

We talked friendly by the line
Admit for the friendship improvement
I conscious my anger is gone completely
Tired to blame myself and you

It seems that it will be same like before
We still catch up in the world of lies
But there will be bound between us
Because you are no longer mine perhaps

@ RWO - Mahakam Delta, 28 Nov 2004
Based on conversation by phone at 00.00am

CLOUDY

Dark gray sky
Veiling the glum morning
Lose its bouncing smile

Dark gray sky
Coldness embrace
Melting to the air

Dark gray sky
Sailing to the curve river
Crossing the million waveband

Dark gray sky
Zephyr dancing mellow
Invite the drizzling rain to flirt

@ RWO - Mahakam Delta, 28 Nov 2004
Cold week in Tambora everymorning

BIRDY

Always in the mild morning
Chirp bird sounds clearly in my ear
Like a petite choir in a bowery tree
Beside a bar pipes curve to the river

White silk mushroom
Decorated in midst of green grass
Jointly with the granules of the dew
Glittering touch by sunlight

@ RWO - Mahakam Delta 27 Nov 2004
Mild Morning in Tambora Field

POURING RAIN

Paint of rain poured down
Frame by transparent window
A brown wooden line

Pouring like a snow pearls
Cold as glass surface
Harmony tunes to the grass

Fall down through the roof
Dribble jointly to the ground
Witness by green wet leaves

@ RWO - Mahakam Delta 26 Nov 2004

FORGIVE

Thousand tears I shed
Scattered heart I lost
Broken dreams I passed
Sweet promises I failed

Deep in my heart I know
Trusting hope will lead a way
The only thing will stay is
Love to forgive
And entertain my sanity

@ RWO - Delta Mahakam 26 Nov 2004

WILL BE ?

Softly smile keeps me longing
To set your image on my mind
And remind me every inch of moments
When our hearts toward into one destination

No quarrel created, no fury irritate
Only peace of mind scanned by pure admit
One sentence means a thousand nice words
All are passed away, will it be redo again someday?

@ RWO - Mahakam Delta 26 Nov 2004

DISTANCE

I thought we were transcend devoted
I thought I love you completely
Apparently, I just don’t want to lose you
Our hearts are in distant place

@ RWO - Mahakam Delta 23 Nov 2004

FORFEITURE

All sorrow,
Anguish
Furious
Disillusion
Spilled
Like broken glass
Scattered around
Piercing

Absolutely ready
To set you free
Until time arrive
When your image
Won’t meaning at all

@ RWO - Mahakam Delta 23 Nov 2004

ENemY

You are not my enemy
I just want to calm down for a moment
Have more space to recover my pain

For I’ve been tired to blame my self
For I’ve been lost you for several time
For I’ve been howl until I have no tears

@ RWO - Mahakam Delta 23 Nov 2004

I FEEL EITHER

Forgive me for my anger if wounded you
I feel double more than what you ever now
You know why?
Because, while I presence you my anger
To release all my pain inside,
I feel your pain either

@ RWO - Mahakam Delta 23 Nov 2004

MORNING

Cool morning asking me to awake
And say, hurry up embrace my light
Brilliant sun with perfect radiate
Frighten away a cold which stayed

Breathing balm of the morning air
Chirp birds singing with a joy
Green grass braces eye
Slim bars of coconut tree dancing along

@ RWO - Mahakam Delta 22 Nov 2004

SweEt ThE ENd

Forget about me darling
Do what you desire to do
I don’t want anything from you anymore
I won’t take everything that I gave you

I know God is very fair with me
He will give me more than I lost

I don’t hate you, you are a nice man
I forgive you, I pray for you
But please understand,
I don’t want to see you again.

@ RWO - Mahakam Delta 22 November 2004

LET YOUR THY WILL BE DONE

My FATHER who reign in my heart
Please don’t let me blame my self
For all the fool I’ve been done
For all the pure I’ve been given

I just try to do the good thing
And hope I will get the good thing also
Without measuring and regret it
Only pure shields with love

I hope everything will turn well
As I can’t force my will but
Let your thy will be done
As my faith to YOU

@ RWO - Mahakam Delta 21 November 2004

RAIN SONG

So, now you crony again with sun
You are not leaving the earth with her dry tears
Smile about weakness human
Pouring leaves with a song

@ RWO - Mahakam Delta 20 Nov 2004
Thanks GOD for the rain

TWILIGHT

Walking along in the silence of the night
Companion by exquisite twilight
Rhyme of wind rumble like distant thunder
Murder trance with night animal song

Yet the light delivering charity
As though absorb of heart’s elegy
Painful of losing sanctuary
Collecting one by one, so it will be recover again

@ RWO - Mahakam Delta, 20 November 2004
As I walk along to the church on site

LET IT GO

It was not so sad I supposed
Set the love free when it doesn’t want to stay
Let it go to find its soul
To find back again it’s real self

It was not easy as turn around the palm of hand
Forget about pain which eternal nest
Let the time bandage by patient
To find back again it’s real self

@ RWO - Mahakam Delta, 20 November 2004
I set you free.

NIGHT SONG

My lovely silent room
Pleasure my weakness soul
With air conditioning rhyme
Companion by pouring rain
To catch the beauty of the night

@ RWO - Tambora 20/11/2004
Try to love my bedroom on field

EMPTY ROOM

Staring at in the silence of empty room
Regretting for sincerity, for sacrifice, for credence
This tossed from the beauty mountain of mercy
Which apart from the mild river of togetherness

The room become more silence
As if know of heart’s suffering
Whimpering, howling, crawling
Scattered around searching for an answer
Scrolling uncertain disordered rope
Muffle the furious by affection
So, ain’t afford accumulate hate

Buried in corner of darkness
Increasingly obscure, black and no light
As black a brain shed by indigo spot
Dip with desperate moan (cry)
Broken spirit in to pieces
Crawling to find a hole of ray
Where there will be space of clarity

@ RWO - Mahakam Delta, 18 November 2004

VIGOR

Slight ray, glossy white
Shocking my spirit then enlighten soul
Lean on my weakness with HIS hand of love
Remind me that HE always be with me
Watch misery, captures tears

Then I find HIS warm hands
Fold all fingers of my hands
Which angular, cold and hopeless
With unending cry, I am praying
GOD, give me strength

@ RWO - CPU-Tambora 17 November 2004

MAHAKAM MORNING

Morning smiles observe behind dawn
greeting leaves frighten away dew
which covered thicket, trees
and wriggle wide river

Sunrise luminescent
awaken daylight for routine duties
clouds scattared various measurements
chase to embrace orange sharp lines

@RWO - Mahakam Delta, 17 November 2004
On the way to my working field.
Prison around the rivers.

NOTHINGNESS

Emptiness posses a soul
Hollow out with large hunk of pain
Suddenly, I forget with my existence
Empty, darkness and faded away
Desire to leave my self

Death angel dancing with the rhyme of seduction
Compliment the suffer and smiling sneer
Waiting behind my consciousness
Maybe I will fall down to rally them
Presence my life into eternal nothingness

@ RWO - Delta Mahakam 17 November 2004

MAHAKAM

Trace a line of the river
Escort by a little wave melody
Either sound of a river craft

Gazing at the edge of light brown line
Around nipah palm march presentable
Her foot dancing along the river

Howling winds chase for destination
Again, then melody streaming with billow
Once in a while interval by seagull screams

@ RWO - Delta Mahakam 17 November 2004
Spending two weeks rotational schedule, killed the bored.
I am starting to love this place

ANGRY SUN

What is going on you sun?
Are you mad of human on earth?
Who always complains you?
Even never say thank you for your ray?

You’re anger bleeding me dry
Hot environment spread all corner
Waters fear to flow
And rain hiding behind the cloud

@ RWO - Delta Mahakam 09 November 2004
Terrible dry season in East Borneo

PAST LOVE (1st LOVE)

I met my past love last night
He was not tremble me again
Like many years gone by
Just ordinary conversation

Why can I be so absolutely fool
To fall in love with him before
Terrible, abuse and long sorrow
Annoying the beauty of the world around me

@ RWO - Balikpapan 02 November 2004
To Stevie, it's nice to keep you as a friend until now.

GLORY ANGELS

Many years gone by
Still keep sweet memories
Painting like colour of the rainbow

Gorgeous angels holding hands together
Share the laugh and dreams in everyway
Make promises would never be broken
Without fear of unpredictable upcoming

CLARA angel with her adorable smile
EARTH angel with her magnificent melody
DOUBLE angel with exquisite cherish
FLOWER angel with her blossoms rose

May the angels will be blessed with joys
With whom they love forever….

@ RWO (Flower Angel) – BPN 04 November 2004
Dedicated to Grace, Gaby and Christie
Happy anniversary GLORY ANGELS 18th (1986 - 2004)
For our nice friendship

REBELLION

Is it true that I am a hard one
Like everybody ever told
Never listen what they said
And do whatever I want
Broken all the rules

In my opinion
I am not a hard
I try to be a nice one
Admit for everybody needs
Calm in every case

Forgive me,
For not listening your advice
For not caring what you do
For not let you know
For what happen with me recently.

@ RWO – BPN November 2004
Dedicated to my oldest sister, Jenny
I love you coz you are my only one sister.